remember when i told you life is full of moments, none of which you should take for granted?
i had one of those yesterday.
it all happened after a day on the river. canoeing with my work friends always lifts my spirits. they are awesome people.
afterwards we always go for a beer. heavenly, i tell you!
after beer i usually head home, only this time, i went grocery shopping. ALONE! i was so excited. if you can remember my last experience, then you know how much i needed to go shopping withOUT my kids.
so i did it.
i was able to back-track a million times as usual without tripping over little feet. i was able to shop without having to yell at three kids the entire time. i was able to shop without having to constantly remove items from my basket that mysteriously ended up there.
i thought it was great.
until i realized...
i was lonely. LONELY! WHAT THE SHIZ IS WRONG WITH ME???
i don't even know. i'm not even going to try to rationalize how i felt. it was beyond weird.
but this i know...
the next time i'm in the store pulling my hair out i'm going to remember this moment and how i have two options:
1) i can remember how lonely it is without them and be grateful for my blessings.
2) i can remember how lonely it is without them and be grateful i'm willing to admit when i'm wrong, because a little loneliness also equates to way less craziness. and way less trips to the bathroom.
(although, i have to admit, it was the first thing i did when i walked into that joint. but don't tell my kids.)