remember?

remember when i told you life is full of moments, none of which you should take for granted?

i had one of those yesterday.

it all happened after a day on the river.  canoeing with my work friends always lifts my spirits.  they are awesome people. 

afterwards we always go for a beer.  heavenly, i tell you!

after beer i usually head home, only this time, i went grocery shopping.  ALONE!  i was so excited.  if you can remember my last experience, then you know how much i needed to go shopping withOUT my kids.

so i did it.

i was able to back-track a million times as usual without tripping over little feet.  i was able to shop without having to yell at three kids the entire time.  i was able to shop without having to constantly remove items from my basket that mysteriously ended up there.

i thought it was great.

until i realized...

i was lonely.  LONELY!  WHAT THE SHIZ IS WRONG WITH ME???

i don't even know.  i'm not even going to try to rationalize how i felt.  it was beyond weird.  

but this i know...

the next time i'm in the store pulling my hair out i'm going to remember this moment and how i have two options:

1)  i can remember how lonely it is without them and be grateful for my blessings.

or

2)  i can remember how lonely it is without them and be grateful i'm willing to admit when i'm wrong, because a little loneliness also equates to way less craziness.  and way less trips to the bathroom.

 (although, i have to admit, it was the first thing i did when i walked into that joint.  but don't tell my kids.)